love and laughter \u003C3
the fog that hid the mountaintops.
My one month break from shooting weddings begins today, but you’re still going to be seeing a lot of what I’ve been up to lately. :)
Yesterday, it rained, it stopped, it rained a bit more, I got stuck in the mud driving out, and the valley and river was covered in fog all day where Katie and Tim were married. I can’t believe this is what I do for a living. \u003C3
Around the house ❤️
dresses that feel like t shirts. ❤️
oh, light of mine. \u003C3
I’m in the thick of wedding season. Neck-deep in editing, going through a half bottle of eye drops in a few weeks from all the computer time, eating more chicken nuggets than I care to admit because it’s just the easiest thing to make, binge listening to TV shows while I work. I cussing love it all.
On a persona note, what I found out today - really looking into the camera is intimidating.
a walk through the greenery \u003C3
the sun came up and every color spilled into the ocean.
i like that i express myself with photography, painting, and writing. since portraiture is a huge part of what i do, i wanted to do self portraits. partly because i’m the easiest available model and partly because it’s an eye opening to experience to document your physical self. but i’ll be the first to admit i’m not the ideal candidate for the job. to start with, i don’t know what to do in front of the camera. my standard face is “bitch waiting for the bus” and i forget what my arms are for, apparently. i also struggle with self esteem, like most women do. for now, i’m working on just getting used to seeing myself. instead of getting to express an idea, i’m wondering why i don’t have more fitted shirts, wondering how to make my torso look longer. i want to get over that and get to good stuff; where i write paragraphs about how i’m feeling and look at light instead of the way i’m shaped. i feel a bit exposed, but i’ll get over that soon. one photo at a time.
I admittedly didn’t want to take a self portrait today. I have a headache and didn’t have any “good enough” ideas yet and felt bad about it.
But I remembered that train of thought was a creativity trap. It’s important to create, even if you don’t like the results. Especially if you don’t like them! The fact is, if you’re only making something every once and a while, you’ll hold what you make to higher standards, wanting each production to be perfect, instead of allowing yourself to be risky and mess it up, like you can do if you’re working constantly. If you work less, you’ll find yourself stagnate. You won’t progress.
So here’s a dumb photo for you, OK? ❤️
"… of shoes and ships and sealing-wax, of cabbages and kings"
in lieu of rings.
when i’m alone, i interact with my surroundings more. i thank my tea kettle for it’s enthusiasm when it jitters to a boil, i pat some of my animal knick backs on their heads, pickles and i have longer conversations than she would like, i think, and recently, i’ve began to take a few self portraits. Nothing conceptual yet, I’m mostly building up my nerve.
want everyone to be super curious about what you’re doing and stare at you in public? no? then don’t do self portraits, apparently.